i only believe what i see on tv.

apparently my sneezes are disturbing the peace in the lib

Ugh.

So I was good and looked at those red-lines, my proffesor changed all this stuff she said was fine before. Why is it wrong now? Some of it is influential parts of my design. Errr. I guess its good I have class at one so I can bug her about all this stuff.

Goals.

So since its all springy and therefore I don't feel like looking at red-lines (edited drafted drawings), I will post. I've finally been sleeping normal and I have to say that it is pretty amazing, however 24 hour studios just started so I doubt that will continue. In other news, I have at least 2 rolls of fisheye film that needs to be developed, but the place around the corner is crap, so I have to find a better place that develops real film and scans them to digital as well. I remeber taking them to CVS in Manayunk once and there was some issue I'm guessing with the machine, which I can't really remember what the issue really was.
Moving is coming up soon and now that its a month away?(I can't plan that far in advance), I am totally not prepared.Yeah, thats my desk, so all that crap is going to get shoved into a box and probably not be opened till December where I will have moved again and might have time to unpack. Crazy. Since where I'm living over the summer doesn't really have an unpacking option because I will be moving again in less than two months, I have made goals for myself;
(1)Finish reading all the books I've accumulated.
Or at least all the ones up here, I have a bad habit of buying more books than I can read or leaving them off halfway through.
(2)Learn guitar again.
I've been lost for melody as I've been writing lyrics, but with no new melodys or ways to convey them I'm in a rut.
(3)Get money for living expenses, supplies for the semester and a road bike.
I love my hybrid Trek and how obnoxiously large I bought it and the fact it was one of the first things I bought all by myself, however its not suiting its purpose. I want more of a commute and work out bike. Aka a lighter road frame, hybrid wheels and tires and drop and aero bars. The standard handlebars aren't condusive to 'pushing it' on Kelly Drive, and I've always wanted aeros. No idea what I want gear wise and if I want to get clip in pedals or standards or one of those fancy both way things. I think I'm likely to go for some lightweight metal ones that at least have traction when wet. I'm a girl but I'm really sick of 'racking it' when I slip off in the rain.
Sweet, maybe I'll go do some work now.

i really meant to check the weather today
to see if it believed in me

Giving up.

I really thought I had something going with a guy, i know iknow the usual. But as usual, i thought this was different. Now I'm just ready to write him off. I'm pretty sure its just me being neurotic and wanting to prove no one is perfect enough for me. I'm not even gonna detail the problem here cause I will prove myself to be crazy. Oh well, I need to read and because of the fucked up schedule he rubbed off on me, I will be doing it now rather than the normal time people use.

whatever this is.

im tired. im worn out. i partied two days in a row and loved it. i got some work done today, an axon detail, most of the pieces cut out for a model, and an elevation. i ran/walked 8.5 miles and it took me over two hours. it was nice i got to relax and people watch and get a supposed work out in. i really believe in this, "whatever you call this feeling of blissfully loving where your life is going with out having the map," that i've said before. i want things to happen, but i don't feel the pressure to make it. i'm happy. i have a whatever, an although i wish i could talk to him all the time, i realize hes just another person, and if i can't give it, i can't expect it. i'm holding strong. im falling down the full-grip sub-surface stairs and laughing it off, the rain helps me breath easier, and dancing in the street is joyful, not dangerous.

Again

the things i should never really bring myself to think about.

today.

whatever you call this feeling of blissfully loving where your life is going with out having the map.