God, I'm trying hard.

This boy devestates me and I need to find a way to tell him that, so I'll flip between here and a cheesy myspace message that I won't send.
When I drive in my car, I can't help but think of you occupying the seat next to mine, and how I never, never thought I could even grab your attention for one second, and now I believe I gained it and lost it.
Starting to sound stupid yet?
I think I scare you, and you sure as hell scare the shit out of me. No one has looked at me like that with those cool burning blue eyes. And I had hoped by staring at the sky that morning that I wouldn't feel you eyes burning into me.
I'm getting very serious for not wanting a relationship.
I didn't lie, I do want you to awkwardly stand by my side, and I think you're the first person I've met that has enough courage, yet subtle shyness to keep me interested. I really wonder if by putting this out there you'll lose your curiosity.
Now for the sell.
I'm not looking for a relationship specifically, and I was thinking I would ask you how you felt about it all. But you write back whatever you want, maybe not write back at all, but know I mean everything I say.
Does it need a comic uplift?
(Makeout buddies?)