Recent Obsession.

Ive been trying to be a lot more expressive lately, even if my classes arent letting me do that, I started painting in this style that I've been using in my prject now, and its kinda how I've been seeing the world lately. I guess I've maybe not given up, but let go of this dream of me being able to do realism. I can only do it with things ive been drawing and drawing. Example, I've been drawing koi for the last year, and they are finally getting good. And I keep using 'I've' in this post and its annoying.
I really can't wait to have a perminent residence. I really want a place to put up art and gasp, maybe paint. I feel like I need the outlet of making a place my own. Soon, though, soon.
http://www.ghostco.com This is Matthew Woodson's portfolio stuff. I like him and I would love to buy prints for the aforementioned home. Damn I can't wait for that day that I can come in and say I'm home. Looking at his work has made me feel so comfortable, and kinda like a stalker, but whatever.
Wow, I'm doing gouache now, damn I am horrible at watering it down. I kinda like it though cause then I end up layering alot. And I just slipped on my floor. How does this happen?
This has been my longest post in forever, but its relieving. I actually had a good weekend. I finished basically all my drawings for final crit that I know how to do. We have to do table details and stuff that she hasnt really explained yet. And I have to finish one perspective. Hopefully tommorrow I will be able to get the right wood to start my model. I went out too, and it was fun. I've kind of gotten over that its very possible my professor will never like what I do, so why not at least do it the way I want to, instead of half-assing it like I feel like she wants me too. It was also nice because arch 4 is doing a rowhome, which we did last year. So when they used to give me shit for not doing "real architecture" I'm telling them how to do a floor plan. Oh yea that, that tastes fucking sweet.
Hopefully, I will get more money soon, so I can buy prints, music and maybe brushes that are effective. The one I'm using now is completely curled on itself. I think its the only one I have of that size too.
I'm actually gonna paint instead of rattling my mouth.