Unknowledgeable.

I don't really know what I want to write, but I feel like writing, and after I do this I usually feel a lot better, and I already wrote two songs today, so this will be my outlet. things have been crazy, yet slow and somehow I have no idea what is gonna happen with everything in the end.
First, at my design crit that was last Monday my work got selected to be on my schools website, which is awesome, but its almost stressing because I have no idea how people will receive it and when it will be up and what it will mean for me now. On the other hand, it will look awesome on a resume and if I can use the pictures, they will be nice and professional for a portfolio. And the big positive is maybe some people can finally understand what I've been doing here and putting so much passion into.
I am realizing this is just becoming an update of my last post, so I will continue on with the boy issue. Baltimore boy did break up with his girlfriend, and then wanted me to have sex with him to get over it, and there is no way I am getting into that mess more than I already am in. He now gets upset when I'm with someone else, and I know for a fact he would be more than pissed off if he knew I've hooked up with other people and not told him. He wants every detail but no commitment. Well I'm ready to cut him out.
Greater Philadelphia boy, well, the friend I knew him through is a good buddy of mine, and when he told his group of buddies that included Phila. boy, that he was gonna visit me, they were rude and even threw things at him as he was leaving. I take it that obviously he doesn't want to see me, and surprisingly I was over it quickly. I guess now that I'm back at school there are so many better options.
Actually, right now I'm pretty good by myself. Sometimes there are the usual times a companion would be nice. But, in general, I'm over it, I don't have that much time to spend on someone else, and I can see myself easily starting fights with a significant other for no reason except that's my nature. So, its just easier for me to do my own thing.
I think that's most of the big stuff. There's plenty of little stuff like midterms and the end of field hockey season. I think it will be a nice refresher to go home to Baltimore after our last game for a day and then come back with my car!! Now I will have a vehicle so those times I just need to get away from campus I can with out needing someone else to go with me for safety or whatever.