Playlist.

You see, I have this plan to sabotage everything good that happens to me, for the fear of getting used to the going getting good.
That Green Gentleman-Panic at the Disco
Babygirl-Anthony Green
Tool Sheds and Hot Tubs-Straylight Run
Eulogy-Saves the Day
Millstone-Brand New
Midnight Movie-The Secret Handshake
Where I Belong-Motion City Soundtrack
Pinch Me-Barenaked Ladies
Let's Pretend-NoFi Soul Rebellion
Dear Child (I've Been Trying to Reach You)(Good Old War Version)-Anthony Green
String of Pearls- Jimmie's Chicken Shack
Let it Be-The Beatles
Clusmy Heart- The Matches
Roots-Brighter Shades
Night on Fire-VHS or Beta
The Difference Between Medicine and Poision is the Dose-Circa Survive
Miami-Taking Back Sunday
+Head in Hands-Valencia
+Thanks That Was Fun-Barenaked Ladies
+Tension-Nural
+Helicopters-Barenaked Ladies
+Mandala-Circa Survive
+Cut Up Angels-The Used
+Another Perfect Day-American Hi-Fi
+Go Home-Barenaked Ladies
+Take on Me-Reel Big Fish
+I'd Be More Interested if You Were Already Spoken For-You, Me and Everyone We Know
+Time Bomb-The Format
+Sentencing-Boys Night Out
+Slowdance on the Inside-Taking Back Sunday
+Writing on the Walls-Underoath

Stickiness.

Reading way too many food blogs of late, got me back to my usual way of taking pictures of pretty food I happen to make. Now, the pictures won't be up quite yet because 1)I'm lazy, 2) I still have mono, and 3) I should be doing tons of school work.
The first course if you will, is sweet potato/yam baked and topped with raw sugar and butter. I cut it up, put it in the oven for 350 for 30 mins and sometimes pour some water in the pan and put it back in the oven for a bit to moisten it up. And then sprinkle a tablespoon of raw sugar and about a tablespoon of butter over top. Simple but freaking delicious.
Second, thawed pre-cooked frozen shrimp, small avocado, a roma canning tomato salad. I am kinda freaked out by pre-cooked frozen shrimp, but I am in college, and money doesn't grow on trees. I put the usual red wine vinegar, olive oil, and all purpose(Italian) seasoning mix to be a dressing. Was pretty good.
Cooling now, is granola that I tweaked to what I wanted. I'm kinda happy with my recipe changing bravery. The granola is for a recipe I've been thinking of for pumpkin bars. Now I really have to get back to my million papers.

Allergic.

I've been reading a lot of allergy logs of late, trying to find ways to omit milk, I do buy soy milk but I try to keep it to just chocolate for daily drinking due to the expense. I still am able to eat limited amounts of butter and cheese, proving that my allergy is much more likely to be something within the production process of the milk. I know I need to cut out butter and cheese. But, I'm a good southern girl, how will I live without butter. I think I will wait to make the switch. Its gonna be too much either way.

Approaching.

Because of the life threatening virus problem, I've been behind on some readings and two major assignments. One for my Africa class was due Friday the 31st. Yesterday I was able to get the necessary tutoring appointment which basically pointed out the fact that I had to smoosh the paper into about 4 days of writing it and at the same time losing tons of focus to what is trying to be accomplished with the assignment. I would like to be able to turn it in Tues. Ok, it might not be great but it will be done, and the tutoring did help. Second is an extended outline for a term long paper and presentation, the outline was due a damn long time ago, so long I don't remember when it was. The physical paper is due next Friday. I wanted to hand the outline in by today, but I slept 12 hours last night, kind of cutting off anytime for work. And I am trying to keep up with current assignments at the same time.
On Tues, my grandmother died, I didn't know her to well, but all the sudden it becomes pretty obvious that I am the one making the choice about driving to Jacksonville (12+ hours) to see the 15 min graveside service. On one side there is the respect, and on the other the two day interruption of daily life and the planning fiasco.
This prof. that the outline is due for, I approach her after class and tell her, I am still sick and still need a lot of rest and my grandmother has died and services are 12 hours away. Her response was, "I'm not telling you not to go to your grandmother's funeral, but I've extended deadlines and you still are behind, and this needs to be turned in now." Wow, well thanks for the understanding. She also screwed me over when I came to her for help because I felt I was doing bad on exams because I felt rushed. She told me that she would never take an exam away from a student and I could follow her to her office with my exam if I didn't finish during class time and that this applied to everyone. With this confidence I took the next exam, taking my time to carefully construct my answers. Then she informs us that we needed to finish up, class time was over, and so was the exam. Gahh, made me angry. Worse is its been a week and she hasn't turned back the exams, when the last ones were returned by the next class period, two days away. So now I have not idea how her constraint affected my grade.
After a phone call, it is decided that we will travel down for my grandmother, I just feel it is the right thing to do.
Also on that fateful Tuesday,I went on a date with the guy I met at Wawa. I it was good. The restaurant was delicious and it was like a real first date, and its been a while since I've had one of those. I have a good feeling he is much older than me, and I don't have the same super giddy feelings about him that I have others, but I'm ready to see how it pans out.
I don't think I'm sleeping tonight, got way too much work to do.
Sometimes I hate the space lyrics take up, but this song has been with me through this whole illness and I feel like I need to include it.
"Head in Hands" by Valencia
Well, I've been saving my breath for another year.
I wasted my time.
I'm coming clean to you on how I'm always catching up.
Yeah, I'm still chasing my heart down 95.
It's a fucked up way to live your life when you are stuck always catching up.
So I'll come clean to you.

Head in hands I find that I've been fighting the words,
It just isn't worth my time.
It's not a way to die.
Suffocated by stress, my life is a mess, it's not right.
Head in hands we climb.
Separated by fate that got in the way of this life.
Of all the ways to die,
Suffocated by stress, my life is a mess, it's not right.

Yeah I've been clearing my head trying to get some sleep,
And all these overloaded thoughts crashed down on me.
It seems that this is just not good enough.
I'll come clean to you.

Head in hands I find that I've been fighting the words,
It just isn't worth my time.
It's not a way to die.
Suffocated by stress, my life is a mess, it's not right.
Head in hands we climb.
Separated by fate that got in the way of life.
Of all the ways to die,
Suffocated by stress, my life is a mess, it's not right.

Well, this is the calm before the storm.
It's getting harder then it has before.
Sometimes you've got to walk in the rain
If you're dying to find what you're looking for.
Dying to find what you're looking for.

Head in hands I find that I've been fighting the words,
It just isn't worth my time.
It's not a way to die.
Suffocated by stress, my life is a mess, it's not right.
Head in hands we climb.
Separated by fate that got in the way of life.
It's not a way to die.
Suffocated by stress, my life is a mess, it's not right.

Weekend.

This is the first weekend I've been able to do anything because I contracted mono. I have really lucked out and haven't had to go to the hospital and haven't had any major complications except for breathing problems. Friday night, halloween, went out to an intensely crowed party after a 6-10 shift at PBK. I got a massive amount of work done by myself and I'm hoping that reflects well to get me floor set shift. I'm not gonna lie, I'm pretty bad at selling. But, I did buy something for my cousin and accidentally left it in the back. I still have to call them and see if they can put it on hold for me. Anyway, the party was good till cops came and escorted people out. I was just pumped about being able to go out and it just got me super excited. Went home made a cheapo hamburger and then my roomie came back with a crunch wrap that I ate as well. (My appetite isn't quite back to normal yet.)
Saturday we went to my other roomie's fiance's old house. The guys were chill. Watched Texas Tech win with a second left. And I decided to see if I could party, I guess as normal. It was strange cause I knew no one, but I really didn't know many people the night before either, but I knew obviously my roommate and her friend Rob who helped us move into the house. I also met a guy, haha usual I know, he was chill except I realized this morning we didn't really exchange the usual music and stuff like that talk. We talked about majors (his: architectural engineering, mine:interior design and eventually MARCH[hah not the month masters of architecture]); our love of iCarly, Drake and Josh and things blowing up. The morning ended at Drexel around 330 with the addition of the hour taken away by daylight savings time. Me and my roomie got it into our heads that we really, really needed Wawa and that I would die if I did not eat a meatball hoagie. So we dropped the guy off at his house five blocks away and I gave the cutest good bye kiss ever, or so I think, by kissing him over top of the headrest while he was in the back seat. Hah, best I could do. We travel to wawa, order, and start talking to this guy. About parties, how we hate when people leave voicemails and jersey. We was super cute and we get our food and leave the store while he was still waiting for food. Me and Ash get in the car and I'm like "I totally should have gotten that guys number." She said, "Just go in now and get it." So I was actually brave went back in, stood next to him, and was like "In case you have something again soon..." and then he gave me his number and I texted him mine. And we texted a bit back and forth about what boroughs we lived in and ended in this text message "i am gonna give you a call sometime, we'll hang out . leave people some annoying voicemails..." Haha. I called him Wawa Cutie. All while the first kid was trying to get me to come back. I don't think he realized I live in North Phila while we met and he lives in University City area. I eat my glorious hoagie on the couch and then eventually pass out there sometime after 5 am, rather uncomfortably. Slept a little bit more upstairs, to kinda late, 11ish.
Now I'm just catching up on all the work I've been behind on because of the mono mess. I need to get a paper, or at least a good rough done by Wed., and an good outline by Thurs or Fri. I'll see if I can push it out.

Stole this. Will explain later, maybe.

obiv im in the library doing a whole lot of nothing

in 8 mins im driving home and eating my like 5th "philly style beef patty" aka cheap hamburger, in the last 3 days.

im super behind on life due to my 'serious illness'

whatev i went out last night and i feel grand.

quote of last night: is your hair real? like it feels really real.
^yes it is.



fB:Meredith is my fall down the stairs, while no doubt graceful, has yielded a insane bruise.