Collapse.

I'm over it, but the world kinda collapsed yesterday. I really don't know who reads this (or who doesn't), but I came to college more for the purpose of playing sports. I am a very nerdy, learning prone type person, but at the end of high school that really wasn't my focus, and now I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have gone to college right away, if at all, if it weren't for sports. Well my focus was lacrosse, and I got screwed at the school I had already signed to field hockey for. It was the only school with sports and my major, so I didn't have another option anyway. Ok, so I settled for being a one-sport athlete and it gave me time to focus on other things, like falling in love with design and architecture. But yesterday they announced that they were removing the field hockey program from my school. Even if I was in the position to transfer, it wouldn't be in my best interest major-wise. The first six hours were hell, just thinking what all this work was for. I largely motivate myself by striving to improve myself outside of field hockey, but it still hurt. It was like losing the dream of being an NCAA athlete and a four year letterwinner.
I have the option of switching to other sports, so I emailed the crew coach this morning. Well see how that pans out.
Yesterday was also my first work out in 15 weeks. I plan on being able to run by next week. Two hours a day of work out-at least. Another thing to see how that pans out.
I am about to call my mother and break the news, we'll see how this goes.Its making me shake. I just can't imagine her voice. Of course when I get up the nerve to call her she won't answer the phone. I'll try again later. She sounded super dissapointed.
Oh man, a boy asked me on a date. I am such a guy, the words, 'date,' 'relationship,' and 'girlfriend' scream 'RUN' to me. I haven't formulated a response yet.
Toodles!

A Break in Time.

The big move is tomorrow and now I'm waiting for a friend to call me so we can go out, if he gets around to it...
I got a lot more packed than I expected and we did recruit a bunch of people to help us lift and carry and stuff. Very awesome considering I'm so damn weak these days. In mono news, I feel like I'm doing a bit better. I'm not sure if its the adrenaline of being out of the house and school stuff, or just the time I'm spending away from the mold. Whatever it is I'm ok with it.
I took apart my bed and took all the shelves out of the one bookcase I have. I have a bunch of little stuff on the floor, and tonsss of crap on my desk to pack/sort. Which I guess I should get on to. I am super spacey with this post so sorries.
I think I'm already doing well in school 'cause most of my assignments I've done except for the homework I've gotten today. We have an extensive research paper due in a week and my professor said that I may have actually done too much work. I am always an over achiever type, specially when it comes to design, but it feels pretty damn awesome to know that I am more than keeping up.
And I've had a social life! The last two nights I've gone to my friends' apartment to reminisce freshman year and talk about optical nerves and glass eyes. Last night I made my roommate and a friend tacos for dinner so that was good to get hangout time in. Shit is def coming together. I'm off to pack some more!

Pumpkin Muffins.

Surprise, Surprise, two posts in a row. Its juat cause I'm waiting for school to start cause I'm a nerd. Insert sickness, failing this semester anxiety here.
I'm waiting for pumpkin muffins to come out of the oven which does two miracles. (1)Makes me feel like I did something productive. (2) The best comfort food ever and breakfast for a while.
I wish I could have gotten my books shipped to my house so I could read them now, but I had to get them shipped to the campus mailbox 'cause of the moving buisness. Annoying but whatev. I really need to spend my time packing a cleaning. But the problem is my room is smaller than an 8X10 and the house in general is a rowhome, once I pack stuff up I don't really have a place to put it. Oh well, I guess I should clean up the kitchen, pack a box, pack up the muffins and head up to bed.
Night.

Moving on and Moving up.

Many things going on since I last posted. There's this deep issue I've been wanting to post for a while, and I have talked about it before. But I keep having this biological clock ringing telling me its time to have a baby. Now with no boyfriend and stuff that makes it difficult, plus I'm in school and have many plans with no baby in them. However, I work at a kids furniture store and its kinda like an immersion technique. After I spend a lot of time with a customer the inevitable question comes up, "So do you have kids of your own?" And last night I couldn't stop myself, "No, but I'm getting to that point in my life where we're thinking about it." Meanwhile blushing massively. The father added, "Oh man, oh wow." I wonder if he noticed how young I am or how intently I added to the question. But seriously. "We?" Who are "we?" Cause I have no clue. But it just keeps coming up in all my dreams and when I wake up about settling down with someone. But I don't have a someone, and I still think I have plenty of time to wait, but geez, I must really need it.
There could be a someone, but we're close friends and I just don't know if it's gonna go there.
Otherwise I've been pretty not awesome. Still have mono and it could be possible that the toxic mold where I'm living isn't helping. This coming Saturday we're moving into a place that I always wanted to live in I just wasn't planning to afford it this soon. But we were forced to make the decision in under a month. Me and my roommate were gonna split up into two studios, but they were very small for their price and they didn't have enough available in time. So whatever, come Saturday I get to be healthy again, after fourteen weeks I think its only fair. However, its difficult because after not working out for that amount of time, I'm truly weak and I still spend most of my time sleeping, not packing.
I did get to go to Denver for the AIAS Fourm, which was really exciting and fun. I learned a lot, like my portfolio is crap, and meet cool people. Its definitely an organization I want to be involved in the future and through out my school career and maybe past that. The college and career expo gave me a chance to look at some graduate schools that I had and hadn't thought of. I'm hoping there is away I can swing it again next year.
I am starting a new portfolio, trying to finish a paper from last semster, get ready for the new semester starting wendesday and getting ready for the big move. If thats not enough to worry about, I don't know what is!