Collapse.

I'm over it, but the world kinda collapsed yesterday. I really don't know who reads this (or who doesn't), but I came to college more for the purpose of playing sports. I am a very nerdy, learning prone type person, but at the end of high school that really wasn't my focus, and now I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have gone to college right away, if at all, if it weren't for sports. Well my focus was lacrosse, and I got screwed at the school I had already signed to field hockey for. It was the only school with sports and my major, so I didn't have another option anyway. Ok, so I settled for being a one-sport athlete and it gave me time to focus on other things, like falling in love with design and architecture. But yesterday they announced that they were removing the field hockey program from my school. Even if I was in the position to transfer, it wouldn't be in my best interest major-wise. The first six hours were hell, just thinking what all this work was for. I largely motivate myself by striving to improve myself outside of field hockey, but it still hurt. It was like losing the dream of being an NCAA athlete and a four year letterwinner.
I have the option of switching to other sports, so I emailed the crew coach this morning. Well see how that pans out.
Yesterday was also my first work out in 15 weeks. I plan on being able to run by next week. Two hours a day of work out-at least. Another thing to see how that pans out.
I am about to call my mother and break the news, we'll see how this goes.Its making me shake. I just can't imagine her voice. Of course when I get up the nerve to call her she won't answer the phone. I'll try again later. She sounded super dissapointed.
Oh man, a boy asked me on a date. I am such a guy, the words, 'date,' 'relationship,' and 'girlfriend' scream 'RUN' to me. I haven't formulated a response yet.
Toodles!