Hell Yes.

Finally got a job. Its a night job at the ups at the airport. I think it will be good. Wow this is lack luster right now, but I'm trying to push back my schedule I was to what it was earlier in the summer/break, when this week I was trying to get a normal schedule back. Whatever I am really excited, even if i can't put it into words. How bout this, benefits, tuition reimbursement, weekends off. Sound good? Hell yea.
I remembered half way through the day that I had this really weird dream about this guy I dated or try went on one date with. We were at some sort of halloween party and duh, he wouldn't leave me alone, and followed me around and I kept walking away from him. And we were in a school, like my high school, but a little more confusing hallways, and we just kept walking at the same pace until he eventually ran to catch up to me. And it was the usual like what happened, blah blah. I do, in this suddenly guy free situation, feel bad about that. But did he feel bad about trying to cop a feel before I left, never to return again? Did he feel bad when we got in to a spat in a crowd in the parking lot of where we met, and of course I shot fire. (sorry coming back hard in a fight has always been one of my few skills). He started the fight I won. I started the relationship, and I walked away. Other people have told me hes a player, and I'm sure I am too. I knew when I started liking him, it was a game, he was just a goal I had to achieve. I admit it that I took it too far to a date, but then I thought it could be something real. I didn't realize that he was that much younger and that he would lose the courtesy that had attracted me to him would leave as soon as we got in to the real world. I guess we were both faking. I was hoping for an honest, well just fade away. He assumed that I was gonna come to Maryland to see him, when I was actually going home for my sister's wedding. He thought I could shove in the time, when I didn't even get to see my one friend who I love honestly and deeply. Did he really think I would make that kind of trip for someone I'd known less than a month? That we'd gone on one date. When I walked out of that date, it just gave me many reasons not to come back. So I didn't. I have a home here, and I don't need some kid whose never left home to make it for me. I got it my damn self.